Then and Now Thursday...Relationship Edition.

So a situation played out last night that had me laying in bed thinking....What happens to your sex life after marriage and kids?

Scene...Myself and B just finishing up a night of catching up on DVR not cuddled on the couch but sitting in opposite ends of the couch. We are in the kitchen just straightening before bed. I walk over and lock the side door and turn around and there is B he blocks me from getting by, he pulled me into him and gave me a AMAZING kiss! We stood there for maybe a minute just kissing each other and then I tapped his back (signaling the end) and as I pulled away he looked me in my eyes and said "I love you". Sweet yes I know but here I am all cynical and shit I walk away saying yeah yeah whatever you don't love me..(Why did I do this exactly?) He replied..with sarcasm......"Oh yeah that's right I am just here for all that hot steamy sex we are always having." I laughed it off and went upstairs replying "Ha in our younger days" I layed down to finally go to sleep. Thing is I didn't go to sleep I layed there thinking....Here is my edition of Then and Now....

THEN

12 years ago......

B and I could not be in the same room with out touching each other

We had sex EVERYDAY (no joke)

If we weren't together I missed him so bad that when he walked in the door I practically jumped him and he acted as if he felt the same way!

I could look at him across the room and feel so much LOVE I couldn't stand it!

Our eye contact no matter where we were felt magical.

B and I would surprise each other with dumb balloons or love notes hidden in places that the other was sure to find during the day.

Walking anywhere B held my hand.

When we went to bed together we were in tangled you couldn't tell where one began and the other ended.

If the opportunity presented itself we would have sex anywhere (car, kitchen table, bathroom sink, beach, many different friends houses usually during a party (sorry guys lol) etc.)

B would page me (sounds funny to say that) just to say 8 3 1 ( eight letters, three words, one meaning... I LOVE YOU!)


NOW

We sit on opposite ends of the couch to watch TV or Movies...maybe I will lay my head on his lap but it all depends.

We have sex maybe once a month. PATHETIC I KNOW!!!!!

When were are apart I still have three other people who require more attention than B that I don't even realize he isn't home. When he walks into the door I feel like I am barking orders...Can you please let the dogs out? Shay needs help with her homework, Can you please get your son off my leg for five minutes so I can finish cooking dinner!, You really need to go to the dump the damn squirrels got into again today!, Bri needs to be picked up from carpool in one hour can you do it? etc...

I look at B across the room and if he is sitting I feel angry...why I don't know...he works ALOT and EARLY....I shouldn't be but I am....Especially if I am frantically cleaning or still have the whole mommy, mommy, mommy CAN YOU PLEASE SAY DADDY ONCE IN A WHILE!!!!

Eye contact.....Whats that?

Love notes???? Un heard of.....The last time B did that he wrote in the bathroom mirror with my FAVORITE lipstick and it took me 20 minutes to clean it off....I was not accepting to this...Although I should have felt lucky and appreciated the gesture..instead i called him and I quote "OF ALL THE LIPSTICKS IN MY MAKEUP DRAWER YOU PICKED THE ONLY ONE I WEAR I appreciate what you did but next time reach to the back of the drawer not the front (I am such a bitch)

Hold my hand....impossible I already have 2 hands I am holding and B is usually holding Nic.

Go to bed together HA actually double HA! I am usually up late doing all the things I cant when the kids are awake. If we do manage to go to bed I do have a rule...At least our feet should touch...Most of the time we have a kid in the middle so no cuddling.....and if our feet aren't touching under the covers someone is pissed...


Sex....restricted to the bedroom....DOORS LOCKED......and we actually have to have an opportunity.....

B still does text me sometimes during the day just to say he loves me but they are very few and far between...



I guess this is just me wondering WHAT HAPPENED??? When did things change? I still love him but where is that passion we had for each other? What happened to the ripping off the clothes, cant get enough, more more more S and B? Does that all go away when kids get involved...if so...WHY? We have a beautiful family we should be overcome in that and bond over that and love each other deeper and more meaningful since we have 3 beautiful, amazing connections to each other? Maybe this could be a new blog idea...My trials and tribulation's of rekindling a lost connection....Knowing us it could make for some pretty funny reading....

Mommy is Santa real?

So this years Christmas season had been extra challenging with the whole is Santa real dilemma! Brianna is in fourth grade and has been told since Kindergarten by class room brats that Santa isn't real. PARENTS can you please control you need to tell kids earlier and earlier that Santa isn't real!!! I mean at least teach your kids Santa respect ex. If you chose to tell your child the truth can you please tell them that they should keep it to their selves and NOT ruin it for other children! Yes I already know that I am probably scarring my children for life by telling them they always have to tell me the truth when all year I lie to them...Easter bunny, Tooth fairy etc... But its all for the magic and excitement of childhood. My brother has opted to NOT do Santa in his house with my nieces instead of Santa bringing the gifts its Mommy and Daddy. He claims he was devastated to find out our parents lied to him. I think frankly that's a CROCK OF SHIT but who am I to say how he felt.

Brianna came home the other day with a really good and very difficult question.

Mommy if Santa brings all kids who are good presents on Christmas Eve then why do we donate toys to Toys for Tots for kids who don't get anything from Santa?

Well damn....How do I answer this?

I then sat her down and how I managed to pull this out of my ass I will NEVER know how!!

I said....

Brianna remember last year when we were following Santa Blog and the elves were on strike and they demanded higher pay and better health care! (the writer of this blog is genius)Well Santa did give in and this is how all this came about... Well you need to understand something when Santa started this whole bringing toys to kids stuff toys use to be Wooden trains and Rag baby dolls and the elves could make these things in the toy shop. Well since then kids and toys have evolved and now its Xbox, DSI, Nintendo's, Mechanical toys, etc... Well those things cant be made in the toy shop Santa has to go out and buy those things so along time ago Santa started talking with the parents and based off the children's Christmas list of wants Santa started charging a certain amount of the cost to the parents. Every year when you have you Christmas list ready mommy and daddy talk to Santa and come up with a payment plan of sorts and we have to give him a certain amount of money to cover the cost. Well some parents don't have the money to even give Santa so he started the Toys for Tots as a way to get families to donate toys to the organization and then he picks them up and takes them to all the kids who don't get anything. WHEW that was alot and some serious quick thinking on my part!

She said she understood and was no longer confused but then she said well so and so told me his parents told him Santa wasn't real! WTF people hurdle after hurdle maybe I should just tell them but that would ruin my Christmas I LOVE SANTA and the MAGIC of Christmas. I replied

He was probably REALLY naughty and when his parents met with Santa he probably told them they didn't have enough money to pay Santa to bring a naughty kid presents! I don't know what to say......

I just hope that I can at least get this year out of her but she will know that if I find out she ruins it for her younger siblings she will get NOTHING for Christmas LOL!!

TMI but I dont care its HYSTERICAL!

I meant to post this sooner but I have been shit tons of busy lately. Working the 2 jobs and entertaining daycare kids all day is EXHAUSTING but here goes....

Last week I had some shopping to do and I took Nic with me. He INSISTED on going to Chick-Fil-A although I LOVE their food it doesn't sit right in my tummy. We eat in the restaurant and then go hit up Target for some needed items. Of course the store is packed with all these damn Christmas shoppers and I was feeling anxious to begin with (not good for the belly either). then of course the fast food gurgle gut hits right in the middle of the store. You know the kind where you go Shit (no pun intended) I NEED to find a bathroom ASAP! yeah I hate those. Well I have this HUGE anxiety issue 1. #2 in public and 2. #2 in public with people in the bathroom. So I rush to the front of the store like a stupid Imodium commercial you know the song ....gotta go gotta go right now! yeah that was me! I am dragging Nic and we get to the bathroom SHIT its PACKED!! Now the gurgle gut gets worse with the stupid anxiety over the whole EVEN having to go to the bathroom dilemma. So I take Nic into the stall with me and I grab one of those paper toilet covers and think if I flush and go at the same time no one will be the wiser. SO I do this and score no one noticed. Here is the bathroom nice and quiet people just washing their hands and getting out and then it happens........Nic busts out laughing...and I quote...."MOMMY YOU ARE SO COOL YOU JUST FLUSHED THE POTTY AND POOPED AT THE SAME TIME" at the very moment I could have DIED of embarrassment and flushed my son all the SAME TIME.

God I love kids......They can embarrass you faster than anyone else.

Oh Brianna........

I feel like I never talk about Bri or share any funny stories about her on here, but honestly she is a good kid. She's relatively quiet, reads alot in her room alone, OCD, Type A, very old soul, all around great kid! I am not just saying that about her she really is. Well she is also about to hit that.......well.....we all know its coming...women hood stage UGH!!!!! I am so not ready for that!!! But in the last two days her hormones are on OVERDRIVE and she is very moody and quick to cry for no reason so we have all been feeding her chocolate and leaving her alone. Before anyone says anything I was 10 when I became a women and she will be 10 in a couple of months! Her pediatrician told me 8 months ago to have "the talk" because she was already high up on the Tanner Scale for puberty. Yeah ME! She has had 2 moments that made me crack up the last 2 days.

FIRST STORY!!

We were sitting at the dinner table and she was just kinda sitting with her elbow (I know bad table manners)on the table with her head in her hand eating. She was obviously pissed off about something but wasn't trying to share. I kept asking her about her day, we started to discuss some things with her that are a bit life changing and we were asking her opinion on it and she was fine with the decisions we were talking about. I cant go into great detail because there are people who read my blog that I don't want to know just yet what is being discussed because it isn't confirmed that this is what we are doing yet. But in our discussion Brianna was still sitting in the above referenced position and B and I were talking and she starts like talking out loud but I think she was talking to herself not realizing that she was ACTUALLY talking out loud and then she says........"I really don't care what you decided just as long as so and so doesn't BITCH at me like so and so does.". I thought I would die B and I both looked at each other and started giggling with our faces turned away from her. She looks up from her dinner plate and says WHAT B said (LMAO even as I type cause it was hilarious) Brianna I know your opinionated and getting older but can you please just watch you mouth. She looked at us like we were crazy and said WHAT, WHAT DID I SAY.... B told her and she started to cry and we laughed harder....I told her she wasn't in trouble but just keep those kinda of thoughts inside her head not out at the dinner table in front of her siblings! She then said....she hadn't realized that she said it out loud! Freakin hilarious. (At least I think) But gotta loves those hormones.....

Second story

Brianna came home the other day and said she had this really great sandwich at dance the other night that one of her friends shared with her. I said oh yeah what was it? She said it was a peanut butter sandwich with marshmallow puff on it. Can you believe I have NEVER given my kids a fluffer nutter. B was standing there when we had the conversation and told her "That's a fluffer nutter" I had a friend in school that ate one EVERYDAY" Bri said, They are really good!! I looked in my cabinet and I had some marshmallow puff left over from rice krispie treats I made with my daycare kids at snack time, and said look we have the stuff if you want to take one in your lunch tomorrow. She said OH YEAH,

This morning I saw her making her sandwich and I asked her how she liked the sandwich yesterday at lunch.....

She replied, It was good but I had to much fluffer and not enough nutter!

I cracked up and helped her put the right amount of both so hopefully today's lunch will be much better!

part of childhood or should I be concerned?....Nic has a tick

Ok, for real this time I need some advice....

I am slightly concerned about Nic. Nic is the calm mellow child who sits back and takes it all in but on the rare occasion he actually gets in trouble when I would try to talk to him he would constently blink his eyes. NO big deal he was anxious and doesnt like direct eye contact while in a situation where he is getting corrected. Well it seems to be getting worse.

We took Nic to the aquarium for his birthday (he just turned 5) and while we were watching the dolphin show I noticed he was blinking rapidly and hard along with a facial twing?? I asked him if he was ok or if his eyes were burning he said he was fine and his eyes didnt hurt. I just wrote it off for the moment but I then noticed he kept doing all day. I said something to B and he noticed it to and said he didnt know why he was doing it either.

I guess I didnt think much more about it and let it go til this past Saturday. Iwas at work when my mother in law called me at work and them immediately text me PLEASE CALL ME which was a red flag. I called her back when I finished up my appointment and the first thing she said after hey was "WHATS WRONG WITH NICS EYES??" I said what do you mean? She replied, He keeps blinking them and squishing up his face like he cant control it he has been doing it all day FIL noticed it to. I told her I wasnt sure what it was but I had noticed it the weekend prior and just thought maybe he had dry eyes or something. She then says....Whats WRONG with him? I dont know I am not a doctor MIL all I can do is call one on Monday. When my boss asked me what was wrong I told her about Nic and some of my co workers said ...."Is it a tick?" is he ticking like tourettes. This SCARED ME! Could my son have the starts of tourettes?

Well I got off work and B was in the kitchen and said we need to take Nic to the doctors I noticed what mom and dad were saying he is doing it ALOT! We all sat down to watch the hockey game and I noticed the whole time he was watching TV he was doing it. I asked him again....Buddy whats wrong with your eyes...he replied, I dont know it just keeps doing it I cant help it. This made me feel bad.I started researching childhood facial ticks and tourettes does in fact start in childhood through adolesent and usually starts withthe facial ticks. BUT it also said it usually is accompanied by ADD/ADHD, learning disabilites and behavioral issues..NIc had NONE of those. He sits for long periods of time, and he will sit and do lessons doing preschool time during the day. I dont know I am just having a moment of being scared for my son. All weekend we noticed it was really bad. He was doing it in all situations playing with his dad, watching TV, when I was reading him a book, and when he was eating dinner.

I guess what I need to know is this normal childhood behavior or should I be concerned. I did make him an appointment with a pediatric neurologist but he cant be seen until january 18th. This is going to be the longest 2 months ever!! Here is the video of him doing it....

Just plain scary!!!!!!!!!

I had a terrifying moment last night and I hope to never have to have it again....

Preface

About a month or so ago my mother-in-law called me to tell me about this truck that she has seen on our street. Because I have a daycare and a mini van I am unable to take my girls to the bus stop ( I don't have enough room to safely strap everyone in). Since she is my neighbor she does it for me very nice I know).

She started seeing this man sitting in a truck in random places on our street like he was waiting for something or someone!! She was very disturbed because she saw him during elementary school bus stop times. All of us parents immediately think WORSE POSSIBLE SCENARIO A MAN......BUS STOP.....SMALL CHILDREN. I had not seen the truck or the man so I just let it pass by my mind. Then my kids thought they saw him at night one night in front of our house...I looked...NOTHING. I started to think my in laws and children were NUTS!!! My Mother in law then got the make and model and tag number and reported him the the police. Well then.......he appeared in a DIFFERENT vehicle. She then really panicked!!! I didn't know what to say or think about that. Well my father in law saw him one night and decided to try to ask him why he was just sitting on our street! The guy took off like a bat outta hell and my FIL tried to chase him down and lost him.....RED FLAG Why is he running from a plain old man!!! So, my FIL then called the police again and gave him the new tag number, make and model. So, this past Wednesday Veterans day my oldest walked to her grandmothers to hang out for a bit and while she was there she took the dog out to use the bathroom and came running back into the house the man in the truck was OUTSIDE my MIL's house!!! Parked behind the trees just sitting there!!! When he say my MIL he left! He hadn't been seen again till..........

WORSE NIGHT EVER

I was awakened by B BLOWING UP my cellphone at 2am. My husband is a truck driver and leaves my house at 1am on the mornings he works. I thought.....CAR ACCIDENT HOLY SHIT!!! been there done that with him before! I answer...

Hello

Hey I'm fine but I need you to do me a favor

OK

Get up and look out the window

WTF why?? Its 2am!!!!

I know I am sorry I don't mean to scare you but when I went out to start the car this morning that "truck" was parked on front of the house. When he saw me he hauled ass out of here. I let the car warm up (I am on the phone now having an anxiety attack) when I left I didn't see him, I didn't feel right so I turned around and came down the other road behind us and looped around the other way and I found him sitting in front of the house AGAIN....same thing he hauled ass when he saw me. I came back into the house and made sure EVERYTHING was bolted and locked! When I left again I didn't see him so just make sure he still isn't there!

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!! There was a man in front of our house and YOU left with me and my whole 105 pound self and 3 small children AND YOU WENT TO WORK!!!!!!!!!

S I didn't see him anymore I thought he was gone...I shouldn't have called and woke you up I know how you are (paranoid, freaked out, have a game plan mapped out in my head what I would do in a worse case scenario, wake him in the middle of the night because I heard a CRACK and swore someone was in the house, make him check EVERY closet and cubby hole in my house at 3am) you probably wont sleep!

You are damn right I am not gonna sleep are you serious!!! I am freaking out!!!

Well I already called the police and they are sending someone out to patrol the street!

That does not make me feel bettter!!


End of call


I did just that I laid in bed awake having a PANIC ATTACK...no xanex! SHIT!

well then things got even more scary...as I laid there awake trying to calm my nerves.......


I SEE HEADLIGHTS ON MY WINDOW BLINDS

I freak!!!

I call B


He's back!!! I can see him he is now parked 2 houses down with his lights shining on our house!!!!!

Call the police....

OK!!!!



555-555-5555......Hello Officer ????? speaking

Hi My name is SC my husband called you earlier about a man parked in front of my house....hes back!

Ok ma'am are you alone?

No I have 3 small children!!!!

Ok we have already dispatched a officer to the area he should be there soon!

THANK YOU!!!

hang up


I am in a utter state of panic!! What the FUCK am I going to do if this douchbag tries to come into my house!!! seriously will my instinct to protect my babies kick in or will I gather them together and huddle in a closet and hope like hell he doesn't find us!!! SCARED, SCARED, SCARED!!!!!!

I call my IL's and wake up the MIL!!!

MIL.....I tell her the above story...

OMG I will wake FIL.

No don't what if this crazy guy has a GUN!!

FIL use to be a cop.....he knows what to do!

No the Cops are coming let them do their job...This whole time I am crouched down on the floor fearfully peering through the window blinds watching....I see movement on the outside of the truck....The SON OF A BITCH is out of his truck...or so I thought....It was the COPS!!! THANK YOU GOD!!!!

The cop then after speaking with the gentleman about his behavior over the course of the month and a half and the FEMALE he had in the car with him it was determined...

He was married.......lives in a different part of the county, and is sleeping with a Young lady on our street. Apparently the random parking...RANDOM HOOKUPS!!!!

Nice!!!

The cop had parked in front of my house and my FIL walked down and got that information from him....APPARENTLY the man and women didn't realize they were scaring all the PARENTS on our street! The cop asked them why the didn't just go to HER house too......well.....hookup! She said her roommate hates him and he isn't aloud inside her house....SOUNDS LIKE A WINNER!!

END OF STORY!!!

I want a GUN!!! I am tired of feeling helpless and scared for me and my children....B has horrible hours and I cant take that shit!! I have always been scared of a gun but I think I may have to find someone to take me to a range and teach me how to use one!!! This day and age is ridiculous....I need to protect my babies at all costs!!! How much longer before someone does try to come into my home....I watch the news, I hear whats going on, and I am NOT going to be a VICTIM!!!

My Little Man is 5 yrs OLD TODAY!!!

I remember this day is it was yesterday. I was scheduled for a induction and told to arrive at the hospital at 630am. As I was outside putting my bags in the car Brian yelled out the door..."The hospital just called they said you cant come in today for your induction!!" I yelled WHAT!!!! I had been in preterm labor and on bed rest for 10 weeks, I had just been to the hospital 3 days earlier and given pain meds in my IV and sent home with contractions every 3 minutes but no cervical change and I stayed that way till the delivery! All I could do was cry I called my best friend Carla bawling my eyes out telling her I physically could not continue with the pregnancy I was worn out!!!

Well at 7am the shift change nurses came in a discussed the high risk pregnancy that was stalling my induction, when nurse Valerie saw my name on the roster she said OH NO we HAVE to let Mrs C. come in and deliver her baby that poor girl has been through hell the last 2 and a half months. She was my nurse on more than one occasion! She gladly called me around 710am and told me to come have my baby!

I ran my pregnant butt to the car and told Brian LETS GO BEFORE THEY CHANGE THEIR MINDS AGAIN!!!

WE arrived at the hospital a little before 8am. The started my IV did all the neccessary paper work and hooked my up to the fetal monitor! She was quite surprised at my contraction pattern all on my own. She said wow good strong rhythem your in?? I replied, Yup been doing this for the last three weeks! She said OH GOD poor thing lets get this ball rolling! They started the induction meds at 9am!


My contractions were building and I was laboring pretty good all natural until around 12 when my Doctor came in. I was 5cm dialated and right before he walked in I felt a little gush I told him I wasnt sure what I felt but I felt something....either my water broke or I was leaking all the nice lub they used to check me with. Well he said I am going to break your water any way. Well he started to get a good postiion to insert the crochet hook looking thing when all of a SUDDEN WHOOOOOOOOOOOSH All I saw was a fountain of fliud like some one stuck their finger over a hose and the look on my doctors face was PRICELESS!!!! My water broke and the fountain I saw was so high I soaked him from the shoulder down!!! He was sitting with the hook still in the other hand and said....."That would be the Gush we always talk about! I started to laugh in embarasment and apologized! The worse part he was still in his office suit! The next time I saw him......He was in scrubs!

After my water broke the contractions got really bad!! I remember my labor with Shay ( The labor that tried to kill me) after my water broke at 5cm I dialated to 10 in 15 minutes and I remember that excruciating pain I had with her. She just came to fast to quick! I looked at my doctor and said this is when things went from bad to worse with Shay should I expect the same thing? He replied, this one is alot bigger and I think it may be painful just while pushing but not laboring its all the same. I looked at Brian and said "I think I want drugs this time" he replied "Thats your decision not mine" I looked at the doctor and said bring it on! He called the anestesiologist and in he came.

I had NEVER has an epidural before because I as deathly afraid of needles! So as they were prepareing I had a hundred in one questions....Is it gonna hurt? Is it gonna help?, etc.....

AS they prepared me for it they let Brian sit in front of me and hold me over I had my feet on his legs. He was rubbing my legs and reassuring me everything was going to be fine. My contractions were RIDICULOUSLY painful at this point and I was trying to maintain my composure all while being bent over like a pretzel around a beach ball! Brian kept repeating..
Its just a bee sting....
Its just a bee sting....

and then I snapped....

IF ITS JUST A BEE STING THEN YOU REMEMBER THAT WHEN YOU ARE GETTING IT IN YOUR BALLS!!!!! (we had predetermined he was getting the vasectomy)

I thought my nurse would die!!!! She said in her 20 years as a L & D nurse she had NEVER heard such a thing...leave it to me!

The epidural was in and I was beginning to feel better when Nic's heart rate dropped they came in put the O2 on my face and rolled me to my left side. It helped only briefly, but whil on that side I los all my cervix on my left side, so they rolled me to my right....Epidural started to wear off and the pain was getting really bad, My breathing inside my mask sounded like darth vader! As I layed there in pain I uttered not one sound....It hurt to think about what to say!

Around 215pm I looked at Brian and said you need to get the nurse something is happening! He ran out and she came in and looked at me and she knew.....it was TIME!

She checked and I was complete and ready to go for the gold! She yelled out to call the dotor got everything ready and told me to do what my body was telling me! So as she set up and waited for the doctor I was giving little oushes with Brian by my side! When the doctor came in he said are you ready!! Ithink the look I gave him he knew the answer....

After pushing for a few minutes I asked the doctor..."What is that?" he said "What" I said What is that I feel down there and I just reached and he replied "You are touching the top of your sons head" I started to cry alittle he asked if I wanted a mirror I told him yes! I knew Nic was my last and I wanted to see what it looked like on the other end of things!

The mirror was the best thing I ever did! As I pushed I could see him coming out!!! I was the first person to see his big head and little face!!! The mirror was angled just perfectly! I watching him entered into this world in all his glory and crying before he got all they way out!

It was the MOST beautiful thing I had ever seen!! They cleaned him up and put him in my arms and I cried!!

Everyday since then Nic has blessed us with a beautiful personality, killer smile, and amazing dimples! One day if you read this son know one thing if nothing else....You are the most amazing little man I have ever come to know, your generosity and your personality are enough to make my heart sing! Your will always be mamma's man and I love you to the moon and back!

Here is the video I made in honor of his 5th birthday!

Touchdowns and Reses Penis...What a weekend!

What a weekend! I am sure there are plenty of you thinking the same thing. We spend a fortune on costumes, candy, decorations, all for one night of 2 hours of trick or treating. It is not one of my favorite holiday I prefer food over candy...(Apparently I am geting old) But this also so happens to be the anniversary of my fathers death. Last year on halloween morning I was with my father when he passed away. There was something very symbolic about me leaning over him in a panic over what was happening with my god father by my side helping through my dads last transition from his world to the next. All the while all I could think was he was there the moment I took my very first breath and I was with him when he took his very last. I thought being there would bring me peice but there is nothing about being with a loved one while they die that I will EVER do again. Enough with the sad stuff let me move on to the happier stuff.....Yes I am deflecting thanks for noticing!


It all started Saturday morning with my little mans LAST football game of the season. He ran a play and actually made it more that -3 yards...he is a very little guy! But he ran about 10 with his coasch running beside him yelling GO NIC GOOOO!!! It was great! Well then the last play of the gam came and they gave Nic the ball again and this time he ran it in for his FIRST EVER TOUCHDOWN!!!!!! I was so happy yet so sad that Brian was working and missed his sons first ever touchdown. I had to laugh because Nic came off the feild and said "Mommy that boy pulled my pants down trying to get my flag!" I looked and his spongebob undies were showing! All I could do was laugh! But then here comes the best part......

Walking to the car I was telling him how so very proud I was of him and he replied to me..."I did it to make you happy mommy" I almost cried right there in the parking lot. I squatted down and I hugged him and looked him in the eyes and said.."Baby I dont need you to score me a touchdown to make me happy you all by yourself being you is ALL I need to make me happy!" I need that right when he did it. His coach was standing there when it all took place and he laughed and said "Nic that was awfully nice for you to say to your mom" Nic replied, I know......He is the best!


Well apparently my running running running and lack of sleep has finally caught up with me! When we got home from the game at 915am on Saturday I told the girls I needed to lay down for a minute I was hurting My eyes were throbbing, I felt awful, just SHEAR EXHAUSTION. Brianna told me she had Nic and I could go lay down...I fell right to sleep and didnt wake up till 1230...MAN I was TIRED...Worse part I could have stayed in bed and slept the remainder of the day. I got up took a shower, cleaned the kitchen, and then Brian got home from work and I sat down on the couch and to my surprise fell asleep for another hour. I told Brian I thought something was wrong with me! I shouldnt be that tired then a friend told me about how the human body can only take so much before it will shut down well I had my final countdown and my body shut down! Then it was time to get ready for halloween! Off I was yet again!

The kids were so excited about trick or treating this year! Shay was a zombie hip hopper, Nic was Superman, and Brianna was a Can Can showgirl dancer (big surprise). Well then here comes the funniest thing I have ever heard. If you have ever read any of my other bolgs I had mentioned that Shay has a sppech disabilty it is alot better but the lateral lisp that she has may never go away...Well ontop of that she has NO front teeth. She know that I have 2 favorite candies...Kit Kats and Reses Peanut Butter Cups...Well we get to a house to trick or treat and the kids get there candy and Shay comes RUNNING down the drive way yelling Mommy Mommy I got you favorite candy I GOT YOU YOUR RESES PENIS!!!! I almost fell over laughing! I think she was trying to callthem reses peices instead of penut butter cups and it came out as Reses Penis. I was embarrassed for a minute but them laughed hysterically and corrected her speech. My kids helped me through a very painful day but makeing me laugh! They really are a gift from God.

Here are their cosutmes...


Brianna..Can can show girl dancer




Shailyn...Zombie Hip Hopper



Nicolas....SUPERMAN!

MANIC MONDAY!!!!

As if Mondays arent bad enough, today was horrible!!! I have had some isomnia issues going on lately and I am not sure why? I know I have alot on my mind but REALLY I need sleep how can my mind keep talking!!! I am working six days a week right now because I dont know how to say no and we really do need the money. So Saturday morning the alarm goes off at 630am! Yes I said 630am...Nic had a football game and I had to have him there by 730am RIDICULOUS I know! But whatever I do all this for my kids! his game started at 8 and ended at 9. I had enough time to get home and drop him and Shay off to Grandma's, then rush off to work till 5 (or so I thought) When I got to work (I am a photogapher for Lifetouch located within Target). When I arrived at work I found out we had a 5 oclock appt so I didnt leave work till 630pm! Shortly after leaving B calls and asks me to get some dinner for the kids....McDonalds it is!

I get home and all I can think is....

BATH

GLASS OF WINE

FLANNEL SHEETS

SLEEP

Well even after all of the above.....no sleep for me. To TIRED to sleep???? Can you believe it??? Who has ever heard of to tired to sleep?? Well I now have. I was still up till 1am. I did sleep till 1030am on Sunday but felt completely DRAINED!!!

I didnt think about groceries......

MANIC MONDAY....
I wake up after tossing and turning all night I actually dont even think I slept at all and got in the shower to prepare for my day of taking care of the daycare kids. When I walk down the steps Shay and Nic are at the table and Bri is in the kitchen she tells me "mom I didnt have any breakfast we are out of milk!" WHAT I said we cant be outta milk I have daycare kids today. I walk over to the coffee pot and turn it on......it doesnt turn on! WTF you stupid piece of sh*t!! At that point I started to cry...no food, no milk, NO COFFEE!!! I call B at work..thankfully he is just down the street at the power plant working and I had a TOTAL MELT DOWN!!! I am exhausted, over worked, frustrated, ANGRY, and tired of being the only one with reponsibility of ALL household happenings!.

B realized I was having a out of body pshycho moment and sprung into action. He left work and went to the store...He got all that was needed and even went to Dunkin Donuts and got me a coffee!!! It doesnt excuse the fact that I am burnt out but made me feel better for the moment!

So tonight I will try to sleep! Tylenol PM here I come....

Coffee.....The honesty drug!

In honor of the "Blissful Benefit" here is my Coffee Post!

Have you ever just sat back and wondered what it is about a steamy hot brew in your cup made to perfection has in common with women and honesty?? I cant tell you how many times I have had a wife, mother, friend, neighbor at my table or on my front porch with a cup of coffee and solitude and TO MUCH INFORMATION! I have learned more about people over coffee than I have over Miller Lite...

So this is what I have learned over my cups of coffee.....

Women love to talk about sex....I thought this was a man thing but I have learned more from women and coffee than I have from experience and sex ed! I seriously don't need to know your husbands favorite position. But I do think its awesome that you steal the batteries out of your kids toys and then replace them before they wake up in the morning.

Women are under appreciated....Yes I do believe that husbands and children think there is a magic fairy that puts their clothes in the dresser. yes I do think that husband would fall to their knees and beg if you just stopped doing everything you do. YES, I do often feel the same dang way. This is when coffee helps you not feel so alone in the world. best part Coffee then helps women plot. Those are stories for another day....

Desperate Housewives do exist.....If you are having an affair...keep it to yourself! Especially if it is with a married friends husband! HELLO...Please exit my porch and leave your coffee....Home wreckers are not welcomed here.

Your best friends are formed over coffee.....When you can sit back and relax and enjoy the fresh breeze of the outdoor with your girl friend and laugh till coffee pours out of your nose!!! Those are the moments I LOVE!

The family that you think is perfect...ummm not so much....Have you had the family that seems like the Cleavers. Ask the Mother/Wife to join you over that cup of coffee..You will soon find out her perfection is a curtain over a drug addict son, promiscuous daughter, cheating husband, and anxiety medication. You bring out the tissues and think CRAP....I just wanted to hang out.

The friend you think is a friend is not really a friend..This would be the friend that you invite over that shares in detail all the stories above with names dates and locations of those events. My coffee is not for gossip its for fun and relaxation....you stupid B&t#h now I am up tight because I think I shared some information with you that EVERYONE probably now knows! CRAP!


I do love some gossip but the hurtful things should remain unsaid but for some reason you give a women a cup of coffee and its like the truthometor goes NUTS and you are now sitting in awkward silence....sipping your coffee....wondering ummmmmm when are you leaving exactly!


So to all of you sex addict, under appreciated, Desperate home wreckers, Best friends, One step away from level 5 Mothers and Wives out there raise your cup of coffee, smell it, taste it, enjoy it and know the day will go on and the world will not stop spinning so for that brief moment of pure joy.......drink up!

What a interesting evening I had!

I seriously couldn't make this stuff up if I tried!!!!

So it all started with Bri (she is 9) telling me this morning about a little girl in her grade who pulled up her skirt and sat on a little boy. She was baffled to why someone would do this (god I love innocence) and I told her that not everyone is raised the same way. I told her all that matters is that she doesn't pull her skirt up and sit on a boy until she is married. She replied, Why? I told her it was "Gods Law" I didn't know what the heck to say I told her that girls should respect themselves and if boys respected them then they would also wait until they got married to let her pull up her skirt! This was by far the most awkward moment of my WHOLE life. I haven't had "The talk" yet I am just not ready.

So the morning progresses and I can see that Bri is pondering on something. You know that look children have when they think they have something figured out and then they just are not sure enough to ask.....Well then here it comes

Bri- Mommy I was born February 2000 right???

Me- yes you were (me secretly shitting myself)

Bri- well your picture on the desk of you and daddy getting married says July 29, 2000

Me-(inside head I'm yelling my holy f*ck ) quietly answering ummmmm yeah

Bri- February is BEFORE July!!!

Me- (DAMN YOU EDUCATION DAMN YOU she was bound to figure it out sometime or another) Yes it is (and here it comes)

Bri- MOMMY YOU PULLED YOUR SKIRT UP BEFORE YOU GOT MARRIED!!!!!!!!

Me- I replied- ashamed and embarrassed ----Yes Yes I did!

Bri-SO YOU BROKE GODS LAW

Me- Yes I have to go to court when I go to heaven and defend myself to the Good ole Lord himself. I may even go to God jail for a bit be he is very forgiving and I already asked for his forgiveness and I am sure he forgave me!

Bri-Ha better you then me

Gosh I love kids




Then into tonight......

Sitting in the drive through at Burger King Nic informs me that the moon is broken! I said buddy what are you talking about....He said look the moon is broken...I looked and tonight is the fingernail moon when I said that Shay corrected me..."No mom that's a crescent moon" whatever moons a moon a moon!!!

Nic was a inquisitive little turd tonight. As we were driving home from Burger King Nic was staring out the front of the van looking at the car in front of me. Just then....

Nic- Mommy?

Me-Yes buddy

Nic-Why are you chasing cars?

Me-What???

Nic-Why are you chasing Cars?

Me-I'm not chasing cars Nic I am driving they just happen to be in front and driving in the same direction! I'm not chasing cars LOL

Never a dull moment with me and my clan!

Then and Now Thursday!

I guess haven't really thought to much and the past life I have been a mom for the last 9.5 years! But here goes nothing......

Here is me 16 years old carefree enjoying my Senior year of High School!! Life was about the next big party, who was dating who, and god forbid..Where you were places in the social standings of your high school cool crew!!




I never at that time thought I would be where I am today. I had no plans for my future. My best friend and I were going to pack the car on her graduation day and move far far away from Maryland. Fate.....had other ideas. One month after graduation I met the love of my life....



Along came the wedding and the baby in the baby carriage. And Now here I am 12 years later. Diapers, car pool, potty training, bras, boys, dance recitals, matchbox cars, and late night house cleaning after everyone is fast asleep....




Same husband, 3 children, two dogs, and more love than I thought I EVER deserved! Some days I may think to myself I didn't plan on this, this was not how I envisioned my life. But I can look at the 3 children I brought into this world and think how could life really be any better than this!

Pain is Weakness leaving the body!

So I had no plans tonight except the usual cleaning, laundry, homework, dinner etc.... Well about 5 o'clock my little sister Melissa (17 almost 18 year old cancer survivor!!! YAY) Called me to ask if I would come hold her hand while she got another TATTOO!!!

Recap.....Her first tattoo is a matching one to mine! Its a cancer ribbon with her favorite color that is actually turned into a butterfly. To symbolize her fight...The butterfly wings are carrying the cancer away. We went together and got the same on in the same place.






So onto tonight, I met her at 6 at the shop and held her hand and HOLY COW I think that hurt worse than her tattoo!!!!! Check out her knuckles on the chair and the knuckles on the hand that is SQUEEZING mine.....




That was PAYBACK for the friends who assisted my Births of my children LOL I am pretty sure my knuckles were touching! As I told her about my pain se informed me that Pain was weakness leaving the body!! Well apparently I am strong as shit after all this pain in my hand!

But the finished product was beautiful! ...........




All in all it was a good night but I need to stop typing my hand is KILLING me! i cant believe I have this much weakness that still needs to be let out! LOL

Wordless Wednesday!

My big strong husband is a wimp!

Every Sunday night B and I make sure the kids are in bed by 8 so they are good and asleep so at 9 o'clock we can safely watch Dexter. That is are time and we enjoy it LOL. Well this past Sunday things got very interesting and I found out my husband will be no good if I ever encounter a serial killer LOL.

When the show went off B decided to stay up to check his fantasty football and the scores of the games on Sunday. I told him I was going to bed that 6am comes really early. I proceeded to walk up the steps and half way up I noticed my front door was unlocked, so instead of yelling to B to lock it when he came to bed and risking waking the kids I just decided to lock it myself. i walked down my steps a rounded the corner to lock my door and then ............HOLY F8&K ME......AHHHHHHHHHHH I screamed like a little girl who just had a spider fall in her hair. B was still in the livingroom had no idea what was going on also screamed like a girl and yelled WHAT!!! Hellllloooo arent you suppose to be my knight in shining armour? Arent you suppose to come running to my rescue? Instead you stay where you are and "ask" what happened!!!!

Apparently, my son was never asleep and was being a little ninja in the shadows of the stairway. When I came around the corner he was standing there flush against the wall. He scared me so bad that when I screamed he started crying I scared him just as bad!

All in all I cant rely on my husband and my heart is healthier than I thought and maybe no more serial killer shows before bed!!!

Random B*tch Fest!

So here is my gripe........

The night all 3 of my children were concieved I could have sworn that someone else was there?? I mean I seriously didnt think that I would be chosen 3 different times for immaculte conception, or am I?
Does anyone else have the same problem as me??

I get so pissed off at everytime there is a problem or some one is touching me, she wont stop staring at me, he took my toy, I'm hungry, I'm thirsty, they wont get out of my room, and my favorite IM DONE COME WIPE ME !!!!!! The only word that preceded these statements...drum roll please.....MOMMY!!!! WTF?????? Really how can you be sitting right next to your father or come running past him to tell me what the problem is!!!! It is official I am changing my name and I refuse to tell the 3 demon spawns what my name will be!

Swine Flu! Ugh its awful!

So I am 99% sure I had that stupid swine flu!! Can I just say it was horrible!!!!! I started coughing and had a little runny nose on Tuesday, woke coughing even worse on Wednesday and TIRED, same on thursday, Then Friday afternoon I couldnt even get out of bed and thats where I stayed all weekend!!! I never did get the sore throat or the fever but I never run a fever so I didnt think I would! My whole body hurt and I had a horrible upset stomach on top of coughing and blowing my nose. Although my kids were fantastic through the ordeal they still trashed my house! I am sure that I will spend the next week reorganizing and cleaning everything. They didnt fight or bother me or make me get out of bed to deal with dumb little fights, but they did eat all the junk food and pulled out a whole bunch of toys and games. I shouldnt complain about cleaning up when they actually let me sleep and lay in bed all weekend!! I woke up Saturday morning to Nic putting his little hand on my forehead and saying "mommy how are you feeling?" It was SO sweet! Its funny how their compassionate side they learned from me appears when I most need it! If any of you who read this get this flu be prepared to be out of commision for atleast a week. I am just now starting to feel better I am still tired but I can move without pain. Be careful and bleach EVERYTHING when you do feel better (remotes, light switches, phones, doorknobes, toilet handles etc) I kept my self confined to the couch or my bed so I Lysol'ed the couch and stripped my bed and bleached all I could!!

Trials and Tribulations of Parenting!

This morning Brianna approached me and told me that she didnt feel well and the she wanted to stay home from school today. WELL I am not a push over and told her she didnt appear to be sick and I asked her if she was sick or was she just tired? She replied, I am just tired. I then told her that was not a resonable excuse to stay home. I began to look at her and i thought it was weird that she would lie about not feeling well but had my daycare kids here and just brushed it off. I probably should not have done that. My mother in law takes them to the bus stop for me in the morning because I cannot safely put all my daycare kids in my van. Anyway, a short time later my mother in law calls me and asks me if Brianna was acting weird to me this morning. I responded with "well she was faking sick but I dont think she was different???? Well then she says to me "Oh NO let me tell you what she told me" I am thinking This cant be good???? Apparently a boy that Brianna is friends with told her that two little girls at her school had called Brianna a "Faggot". Brianna was devistated!!!! This has all sparked over the said little boy who really likes Brianna!!! The little boy who told Brianna what had happened also told the girls that he didnt appreciate the girls talking about Brianna....They rolled their eyes and said "WHATEVER". Well, I called the principal and had her speak to all parties involved and the little boy confirmed Brianna's story and then of course........The girls lied and said that they NEVER talk about anyone!!! I know who the one little girl is and I know her mother and it just proves a point I have always said "Children learn what they live" If the mother is a two faced fake person she is teaching her daughter to be a two faced fake person!!!!! I hope you are PROUD of yourself mother of said girl you are #1 MOM in my book. I hope while you are patting yourself on the back you stab yourself with the same knife that is lodged in SO MANY other peoples back. How can a person "claim" to be a AWESOME MOTHER and care about her children teach them to be manipulative and just plain EVIL!! Sorry venting.........But I was very happy to hear the principal talk about how amazing Brianna is and how she ALWAYS shows excellent character and how she was a asset to the school! I am a AWESOME MOTHER and I dont teach my kids to act like a "Mean Girl"


Second Story! ( All in one day)

My daycare kids like to race and rip the race cars around the daycare and everytime I tell them "Please dont race and run at each other someone is going to get hurt!" Well, They dont listen. I had my first daycare injury today!!!! Nic (my son) and the 3 year old boy I have were racing the cars around the daycare and the 3yr old went one way and Nic went the other.......Next thing I know I her CRASH and Crying!! I turn and Nic and the 3 yr old had a head to head collision. The 3 yr old and Nic are crying I am consoling and checking to make sure no one needs medical attention but at the same time I am scolding like this........

to the boy -> "how many times has Mrs. Shannon said dont run at each other with the cars"

the boys -> "(sobbing) every day!!!

to the boys -> "Now do you understand I am not being mean I am keeping you safe"

the boys -> yes cause my head hurts really bad!!!

to the boys -> I bet it does!!! Lets get some ice and we will be all better!!!


I kissed 2 boo boos and everything was fine! Nic does have a really big goose egg on his forehead but he is fine tonight! So if you are reading this thank you for the quick vent and thank you for reading!

Its been way to long since I last blogged!

Well its OFFICIAL yesterday I became a licensed daycare provider WOO HOO!!!! Its only been a year in the making! Today was my first licensed day with 2 adorable little boys! We finger painted and played red light green ligh we ripped and raced and played hard all day and it was fantastic!!! This has always been my dream to work with children and it has finally come true!

The kids go back to school next week and I think they are good and ready!! All is well here the kids are doing great and getting big! Nicholas is so excited I am doing daycare and home with him all day!! Things are about to get crazy again Nic is playing football and the girls are dancing again so Mon-Sat we are booked and some sundays depending on dance rehearsals.So its just another adventure in the life of SUPER MOM OF 3!

Responsibilty...Please tell me if I am wrong

Okay, I have been testing this theory and so far so good.

I am a firm believer in teaching your children responsibility and consequences for there actions and choices. In order for me to do what I do for my children I make them carry alot of responsibility. Mind you my children are 9, 7 (on Monday), and 4. I no longer get up with them in the morning. This is our schedule....

700am- Brianna's alarm goes off and she gets up on her own and goes to wake up her sister. They get dressed and they go downstairs to the kitchen where they make breakfast. Just to let you know I am awake and I am actually in the shower getting ready for my day. Sometimes Nic is awake but not always he is LAZY! After the girls eat they pack their lunch (which I randomly check so they know sandwich, chips, cookie, yogurt, fruit or vegetable and juice box or water). When they are done they proceed upstairs where they brush their hair and teeth make the beds and pick up all their laundry. At 820 we leave the house and go to the bus stop.

I was told that some of my friends disagree with the fact that I don't make their lunches or breakfast. That my job as a mother is to provide all of that for them (ha ha hahahahaha) Well my feeling on that is I have seen some of the laziest most disrespectful down right nasty children who care about nothing come from homes with no responsibility's. My girls have come to like the routine we have in place. When they help me I am able to spend more time with them and run them to dance 3 nights a week and spend WHOLE weekends at dance competitions.

When it comes to consequences if I give my kids a choice (and this goes for Nic to) they have to deal with it EX:

I offer you waffles or cereal for breakfast and you choose waffles you are eating them. I tell them that they were given a choice and thats what they choose so deal with it. You have to take ownership of the choices you make and the consequences of doing so.

I am so tired of seeing kids make decisions that end up affecting the parents and they just dont care. I decided early on that for every responsibility I carry my children will do equal (once age appropriate of course). I see kids walk into the house and throw EVERYTHING onto the floor and tell the parents to pick it up WHO TAKES ORDERS FROM THEIR CHILDREN!!!! Hello YOU ARE THE PARENT NOT THEM!

I dont know I am just looking for other mothers opinions regarding this. But I have to say what ever I am doing is working because my daughters teacher told someone else that he didnt know what we were doing to raise such a lovely young lady and whoever is raising her is doing an AMAZING job. I love to hear that!

Dont underestimate the ages of my children Brianna is wise beyond her years and VERY MATURE for her age. I refuse to feel like a slave to my family and I think my children are respecting the fact that I have given them more responsibility.

To Cute!

So, Nic and I tackled the front yard yesterday. I pulled weeds as he gathered the piles and put them in a 5 gallon bucket (Out wheelbarrel is BROKEN!) so we could carry it across the street and dump it. I also edged out the flower beds (dug a trench pretty much) and I never realized how heavy 5 gallons of dirt really was. But now worries Nic carried the other side of the bucket and amazingly it didnt seem that heavy when he put his hand on it to help me. After I finished the yard Nicolas and I decided to wash the van. Well he only helped about 5 minutes before he decided to wash his tractor LOL It was so dang cute!!! He parked it on the sidewalk stole my rag and my bucket and the hose and washed it! I wanted to take a picture but I couldnt find my stupid camera I swear I can never find it when I need it!

Girls Day Out!!!

I had the BEST DAY today. I took my 2 baby girls to the mall and we spent the whole day together. I took them to the salon and got their hair cut. Brianna's looks amazing they thinned it out and OH MY she looks like a completely different kid! Shays was just cut to below her shoulders and straight across. After I cut all her hair off two years ago she wont let anyone touch her hair. She was not happy about it today.

We arrived at the mall and headed for Claires. The girls had (what I thought was $20 gift cards, apparently they were $30 dollar cards) Gift Cards from Christmas 2 years ago. Can you tell this was a BIG DEAL we NEVER go to the mall. Well once the girls realized that they only had $20 dollars to spend (like I said I was wrong) we were in there FOREVER! Every time they picked something out I told them the price it was and how much they had left. Well Shailyn got frustrated half way through the store and says..."Why is everything so expensive" I laughed, Shay everything has always been expensive but you have always spent mommy and daddy's money but now you are having to spend yours its not much fun is it. But I was proud of them they did use their money wisely. Then we headed out for lunch.

We hopped into Children's Place after lunch and hopped into some really great sales. I got a WHOLE BAG of clothes for $117.00 It was awesome....Then off the Journeys Kids where we found shoes for $4.99. We picked a great day to shop there were some good sales a clearance stuff too!

After we left the mall we hit Old Navy for matching flip flops and then target for some shorts for Bri (I still wasn't paying $24.50 for shorts) On the drive home the girls were talking about all the GREAT clothes they got and how nice it was to spend the day with mom.

These are the days that I LOVE BEING A MOTHER!!!

To protect you must also sacrafice!!!!

HOW I PROTECTED

Well last Friday I found out that Shailyn has been being bullied on the school bus and let me tell you something "Dont piss off a momma"!!!! Apparently the girl Shailyn was sitting with was forcing Shay to sit by the window and not allowing her to talk and when Shailyn did she shoved her against the window. Well that was all I needed to hear....

When we got out to the bus stop I waitied patiently for the bus to come and when it did I flew out of the van. I climbed right up on that bus and told the bus driver what was going and demanded that Shays seat be changed. He told me his bus was full and that he would have to figure something out. I said "Oh HELL NO! I am not getting off this bus until you change my daughters seat.....and he did! I informed him that I was also calling the school to handle this situation.

When I got off of the bus my new neighbor was looking at me like I was NUTS!! LOL Well if you mess with my babies you will definately see the nasty side of me. She said "Are you okay?" I laughed and said yes and just gave her a brief synopsis of what I had learned about what was happening to Shay. She said WOW you are always so neat and nice and put together and then this morning I saw a whole new light around you and I was scared LOL!!! I just laughed it off and said as long as she was not hurting one of my children she would never have to worry about encountering that Shannon ever again!!!

I called the Vice Principle and thankfully I volunteer alot and he knows me. He sprung into action and handled the situation. He called Shailyn down to the office got her side of the story and then talked to the other BRAT and told her bullying was not tolerated and if he heard of it happening again he would take further action. He also made sure that the bus driver permantely moved Shays seat.


HERE IS THE SACRAFICE!!!

Sometimes I dont understand parenting.

Shailyn has now been moved to the back of the bus with her sister. Which I thought would work out better. I was wrong....

While at competition this past weekend one of Shays dance mate informed me that Shailyn told her a story of another little boy and girl at her school were caught taking their clothes off and kissing!!!!!!

I was mortified that my daughter told this story. When we got home my husband and I sat her down and asked her what was going on. Brianna also confirmed that Shay overheard other kids in the back of the bus talking about this situation. Brian and I told her she was never to repeat the things she hers to other kids and that she needs to tell a grown up what she hears.

I dont know what to do I can drive them to school everyday but picking them up is a problem both Brian and i are working at 330pm. So to save my 6 yr old from a bully I feel like I am sacraficing her innocence! I am at a loss and I just figure I will come up with a way to stop her from riding the bus and protect her a little longer!!

I know I know I suck at this but TODAY I AM A PROUD MAMMA!!!!

Well as most of you know I am a mom to two beautiful dancers!!!

This pas t weekend we had a dance competition and Brianna performed her SOLO for the first time! Well She danced on Saturday at which time we realized they put her in the WRONG CATAGORY!! They had her in the "Future Stars" (which means they have little to no competiton experience and is meant to be a steping stone for the kids) age range 9-11. Well Brianna is technically nine but JUST turned nine and was suppose to be in the 8 and under catagory. Well we fixed that and asked the judges to place her in the right catasgory and they did. Brianna did her solo her song is concrete angel by martina mcbride. She NAILED it!!! I cried like a two year old who just had a lollipop snatched from them. I was very proud of her to have enough courage to get on that stage and dance as if noone was watching. She looked like she owned that stage. After she was done the judges informed her choreographer that we would not recieve her scores until SUNDAY!!! ugh Saturday night was a LONG night.

Sunday morning we had to report back at 1230 for the awards because the other 8 and unders all performed Sunday morning. Well they announced her name and she won.......

ELITE GOLD AND FIRST PLACE IN HER CATAGORY and SECOND PLACE OVERALL IN HER AGE DIVISION!!!!!

For her first time out on a stage alone I was in shock and on a emotional high!!!! My babygirl has made my day!

These are the moments as a mother that I live for. She was so happy and just seeing her facelight up and carry her trophy and her metals was pure bliss.




Shailyn also danced this weekend and did fantastic as well she is so dang cute coming up behind her sister. She wants to be just like her ( I just wish she could clean up after herself like Brianna does LOL).

Shailyn has the cute factor going for her. She could stand there and win trophys just for being cute LOL.





All and all it was a very good weekend!

Nicholas Cracks me up!

This morning I see Nicholas is still in bed....'

I run and jump into his bed and snuggle him REALLY tight and kiss him all over and then tickle him to death while shouting "Why are you not out of bed". He is giggling all over his self.

He recently started sharing a room with Shay because he wouldnt sleep in his own room and was always climbing in bed with her and they both agreed they wanted to share a room. This made Brianna very happy because she got her own room (Nic's old room). This worked out great Nic wants Tractors and Shay wants Horses and well.....They go together.

I asked Nic if he liked sleeping in his new bed he replied "Yup" "Shay sleeps behind me in her bed and I sleep in my bed". But mommy I dont like Shays horse picture???? I am puzzled by that it is a great picture of beautiful palaminos grazing in a field so I ask him why not?

He replied...The horses are evil........

I died laughing. I told them they were not evil and he laughed and said They wont eat my carrots for me so they are EVIL!

Feeling the sting.......

Just a quick note!!!

We are having issues with Brianna treating her sister very badly. Well after bringing her not so nice behavior to her attention I asked her how she would feel if I treated her the way she treats her sister? She replied "I wouldn't". Well here goes....

This morning Shailyn came into my room upset that Brianna wouldnt let her put a bow in hair ( The bows are Briannas). When Brianna came into my room I asked her why her sister couldnt wear one of her bows. She said " I dont want her to lose them" I replied "She has worn one in her hair all week and has yet to lose one you need to give me a better expination because Shay had given her all her money that she had been saving so you could go to the movies with a friend" Bri then replied (Your gonna love this).... "I am not wearing a bow in my hair today I dont think she needs one in her hair".

I was unaware that the world worked that way!

This is where the lesson of the day comes in.........

About 5 minutes later Brianna comes to me and say's "Mommy I have dance today and I need you to pull my hair up in a bun."

Really!

Well I turned to her and said............

I am not wearing my hair in a bun today so I dont think you should either!!!!!


The look on her face was priceless!!!!!

I told her that I suggest that if she needed her hair in a bun that she better figure it out on her own.

Well..............

She did!

Then...

I noticed Shay had a bow in her hair when she left for school..........

WHOA! What a shocker!

Sorry I havent posted lately but as my headline say "Busy mom of 3".....

So I am on the journey to opening up a home daycare. WOW the stuff they make you do is ridiculous. I have to take 24 hours of classes and I am confused???? I am a mother of 3 what have I not experienced?? Anyways, I started my classes last night and my first class was in special needs. I went into this class thinking ok special needs......Autism, Cerebal Palsey, Severly Handicapped, etc. Well when I first entered and sat down I began to realize that I was WRONG!

The instructor put us in groups and asked us to write down what we think when we hear special needs, my brain went into overdrive and I put my head in the game and realized ok special needs is any child who requires alittle more attention than a average child (I hate saying "normal") Then it hit me (or maybe I was in denial) I had a child with special needs.

Shailyn (now 6) athe age of 2 was hardly talking and if she did it was really hard to understand her. I kept saying to friends with children that I didn't understand why she didnt talk like her older sister did at her age. Everyone said "You cant compare children because they all develop differently." I knew that but my mommy intuition said otherwise. Well long story short I contacted Child Find (A organization for children with disabilities) and they diagnosed her with Speech Aproxia- The inability for the signals in her brain to reach her tongue. She was in Speech Therapy for 3 years and I can say...she tested out of speech this year because she is a "Straight A" student and her speech has no educational impact. She still doesnt speak very well but its way better than she was.

I started thinking about my own children and trials I am going through, Or should I say my misfortune.

Brianna...Perfect!! Straight A student, Extremely intellegent, reads way beyond her grade level, Average size, Average weight, all around exactly what every parent wishes for




Shailyn.....Tiny little thing with a heart of gold. She would cut off her left leg even if she needed it and give it to you because you would need it. Has a speech disability, Asthma, and a common cold for her will turn into puemonia in like 5 minutes.



Nicholas...Poor Nicholas......Cute as a Button and he doesnt grow! Mothers never say I wish they would stay little forever because it could happen! He is 4 yrs old and I can still carry him on my hip. He is the size of a 2 year old. We have been monitoring his growth for the last year and sadly nothing has happened. We are meeting with the Chief of Pediatric Endocrinology at Georgetown in 2 weeks. I will be posting this journey alot!



How is it that I did Everything the same with all 3 but only one is "Average". It pisses me off that I did what I was told, I read every book, I ate healthy, I took my vitamins, I went to the doctors like I was suppose to (Maybe more) and then we have these women that I see not doing what they are suppose to and end up with "Average Children".

I am a great mother. I live for my children and their needs, I put them before myself all the time.

I am thankful for this Special Needs class that put things into perspective. I often like having these pondering thoughts. ......

Friday, Oh Lovely Friday!

Well most people love Fridays I in fact dread them. This is day three for us and our 3 consistent nights of dance classes (But this is the looooong night) Brianna has to be there at 415 pm and Shailyn has to be there by 6pm and they both dance till 9!!! YAY! (sarcasm) I do enjoy sitting and talking with some of the other moms we exchange websites and sale information for anything that has to do with dance supplies. believe me we need all the discounts we can get! This is a expensive hobby!

Tonight is the big "THIS IS HOW SHOW TROOP WORKS" meeting. HELLO, I have been doing this for 3 years I can glue eye lashes on with my eyes closed and have hair/make up down to 45 minutes why do I need to attend jeesh! Most of my friends are hanging out at home decompressing from the long stressful week of work and I am not getting home till 10 because I have to sacrafice my free time for my children ( 18 years right 18 years) no propping my feet up , drinking hot chocolate, watching a movie I am sitting in a building with very little heat and smells like sweaty feet. Okay I sound like I am b*&^ching but I am not whats 5 hours of my time on a friday. Be real Shannon your a mom its all about them.

On a good side my husband is leaving work early and we are going to have lunch together today. I am excited about that we NEVER get any time together. We will have Nicholas with us but one is better than 3! I sometimes wonder how marriages survived 40-50 years ago. The wives stayed home and cared for the children while the husbands worked all the time and they still managed to find time to have 8-10 kids! I cant find time in my schedule to even kiss my husband. We usually wave at each other as we pass each other on the road and when I get home he is sleeping because he gets up at 1 in the morning!! Very frustrating. When we are home together the kids demand his attention and I am usually cooking or picking up around the house. I have to say I am jealous of how much time my kids get with Brian. he can be EXHAUSTED after working a 16 hour day and still get down on the floor and wrestle. I watch them and think.......damn I wish I could wrestle but then every one will starve because dinner wont be ready! Well I am going to cherish this little bit of time at lunch with him. I hope every one has a good Friday!

Well here I am!

Hello All,
I have never tried this blog thing before besides my facebook or myspace. I have decided to enter this fabulous world of blogging! I am a young mother of 3 unbelievable children Brianna is 8 (9 next week) Shailyn is 6 and Nicholas is 4. I can promise there is never a dull moment in my house! While I do love them they can drive me nuts! My friends say I spread myself way to thin but I cant help it! They are all only this age once and I cant stand the thought of missing anything!!!!! I think I am raising my children to be very well rounded children. just yesterday I felt horrible I could barely get out of bed Brianna sprung into action like the worldest best daughter she took care of everything!!!! She made her brother and sister breakfast lunch and 2 snacks. She even made me lunch and brought it to me in bed! They are sheltered from alot of what goes on in this world but i can say I dont lie to them I just tell them the truth in a age appropriate way. My husband and I try to see eye to eye when it comes to parenting but i am sure we will all see in this blogging journey just how different we are! Thanks for taking the time to read and hopefully this will get better for me any suggestions I am ready!